so, that.

Jan. 23rd, 2012 07:31 pm
prudence laughing in the sunshine: "won't you come out to play"
So I met the guy in a coffeeshop this evening and had the Awkward Conversation Of Great Awkwardness, and he took it very well, which was nice. And then I came home and called my dad and came out to him officially for the first time (I'd hinted about liking girls for years, but never actually had a conversation with him about it, and this time I actually came out as full-stop Lesbian), and then talked to my mom and she was like, "yeah, not surprised, we love you regardless, is that really all you called about?"

THANKS MOM.

So, yeah. I feel a bit like Willow. Gay now! Which doesn't mean I won't still get really pissed off about bisexual erasure and prejudices, but I'm not going to keep clinging to an identity that doesn't fit anymore just because it's convenient. And I still do think it's possible that one day I'll meet the right guy and fuck rigid notions of sexuality anyway, but it's...definitely not likely. And I'm not going to push myself in that direction anymore. So there we are.

That felt surprisingly good.

festivids!

Jan. 21st, 2012 09:44 am
dan/casey shooting the shit
So basically everyone else can go home, I totally won Festivids this year, OH MY GOSH. I received the two most gorgeous and perfect vids ever, and I do not say these things unless I mean them.

First, continuing the Sports Night theme of my holiday exchanges (seriously, I'm kind of baffled myself, I requested tons of other things too), this lovely ensemble vid, To Make You Feel My Love. THEY ALL JUST LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH OKAY. I'm really impressed by how the vidder made such a slow-paced song work with a TV show that's so quick and talky, but it really, really does. And while obviously the lead characters get the most screentime, all the other characters get their moments, too, and I LOVE THEM ALL.

Then, this weird and gorgeous Donnie Darko vid, I'm Not Done, which captures the essence of the movie and Donnie's unbalanced mental state absolutely perfectly. It's eerie and unsettling and very, very beautiful.

SO MUCH AWESOME. Now to dive in and check out the rest!

(If anyone guesses mine, I'll...write you a thing? IDK. There are a lot of vids. Mine is...obviously mine if you know what you're looking for, but I don't think I've ever really discussed the fandom on this journal before. It's not anything I've ever vidded or written for.)

yarrrrr

Jan. 19th, 2012 04:02 pm
wash's dinosaurs: "curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!"
So, the FBI shut down Megaupload.

Look, ma, no SOPA/PIPA necessary.
toye & lip will fuck your shit up if you don't shut the fuck up and watch the goddamn film
Roommate moving out tonight. Like, she started packing her stuff up with a couple of friends at 9:15pm. On a weeknight. And since I have to collect her keys from her when she's out, I have to wait up until she's done. Of the long list of petty inconveniences she's caused me over the past couple of weeks, this isn't really a big deal, but damn it, I'm tired and I've got to be up at 6:30am for work as usual and I just want to go to sleep. Aaand she just left on her first run, and will be back for the remainder in another 40 mins or so. DAMNIT.

At least this should be the end of THIS roommate drama. Which, really, you don't want to know and I don't want to type it all up.

New roommate moving in probably Friday morning. I like her a lot, all of the twice I've met her. But good personality & responsibility vibes, strong enough that as soon as she left after I'd shown her the place I already knew I wanted her. (And unlike leaving!roommate, who was very nice but I didn't feel entirely comfortable with, and felt rushed/pressured to choose her because I was running out of time.) So here's hoping.

And I had a long phone interview this evening for a potential 5-month summer theater job. It went pretty well, though of course I don't know how many other people are being interviewed or how well any of THEM did. Fingers crossed, anyway. (And a local theater I've never worked with just e-mailed me offering me a gig in May. Which I turned down, because I've heard mixed things about working with them and, well, because I'm hoping for one of the summer theaters to come, but still. It's always a good ego boost to know someone out there recommended me highly enough that a theater would be willing to hire me sight unseen.)

Life. It happens.

<3

Jan. 15th, 2012 08:23 pm
sherlock/john in taxi
I'm about 2/3 through the last Sherlock, and I just had to pause to say -- spoiler spoiler spoiler )

grump.

Jan. 15th, 2012 01:07 pm
history: just one fucking thing after another
Well, this roommate search is proceeding MUCH better than the last one. Posted ad on Craigslist Friday evening, got 15 responses by yesterday morning, showed five people the place yesterday and have three more coming today and tomorrow. I have no idea how I'm going to pick a roommate -- everyone seems very nice, though they're all quite different from one another. No red flags, but no one I've been like YES LIVE WITH ME PLEASE. So, yeah. I feel weirdly guilty knowing that I'm going to turn most of them down, even though of course that's how this process works. But I remember feeling rushed and slightly bullied offering the place to current!roomie (though I liked another girl slightly better), and that clearly didn't work out, so I'm more inclined to listen to my gut instincts this round. We'll see.

I caved and requested an extension on my [community profile] white_lotus exchange, thank goodness. This weekend has been insane enough as is. And the fic I'd originally been writing for it really, really wasn't working for me, so I scrapped it entirely and am now working on something completely different. Which I like so far, but doubt I could finish by tomorrow. So yay extension! I'll definitely have more time this week to complete it.

Am completely, miserably stuck on the next chapter of Queen's Gambit. I've got scraps written, but no complete scenes. I have such a clear idea of where I'm going later in the fic, but not how to get there, and it's deeply frustrating. And with all the holiday exchanges, I haven't even been thinking about that 'verse for about a month now, and getting back into that headspace is harder than I'd expected. Ugh. I'm really excited about what's going to happen a chapter or two down the line, but connecting the dots in between is just...not working. And I don't know why. Can't I just skip straight to the job itself? Why do I have to write all the crucial set-up crap in between? Bah. (Part of it is that there are certain POV characters that come way more easily to me than others, but no, Logan and Emma are actually doing important things and I actually do need to write about them. It's just a constant struggle for me to slip into their voices. Why can't Alex narrate everything? And then there's the side issue of certain characters knowing more than I want the audience to know just yet, so I've either got to avoid their POV or be very, very careful about what they give away.)

And current!roomie is either never home or has shut herself in her room, which is frustrating because I actually do need to talk to her about what her plans for moving out tomorrow are. And get her share of last month's utilities, which she still hasn't paid me back for. And also she needs to come out of there before someone stops by to look at her room today. Argh.
nixon proffers flask
Speaking of moving...new!roomie is moving out. Family emergency-type reasons, totally understandable, I don't blame her for this at all. But now I have to go through the whole damn roommate search process AGAIN. When I don't even intend to live here for more than another four or five months. Seriously, universe? Seriously?
turnleft!rose is fierce in front of TARDIS: "further to fly"
So I did the thing where I randomly burst into tears in the bathroom this morning because I'm so unhappy with my life and feel like a failure for no reason and shit like that, but I'm not going to write up a long emo post about that. Instead, I'm going to channel my energies into getting the hell out of DC in the next six months, because while I realize that randomly relocating won't solve all my problems, I really need the psychological boost of a fresh start and getting the hell out of the rut I've fallen into here over the past few years. My goal is to live somewhere else by my 27th birthday in June. First step has been applying for stage management positions with just about every respectable summer theater I can find, which I've been doing. If any of those come through, that'll do me for a few months at least. But even if none of those pan out, I need to get the hell out of here. So! I've pretty much narrowed it down to three potential cities I could move to. Any and all advice on this would be more than helpful.

Seattle, Boston, San Francisco. Others? )
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After spending an hour and a half futzing around, I have come to the conclusion that I am completely stupid when it comes to Tumblr. Everything about what that site is and how it functions is completely counterintuitive to the way my brain processes information. UGH. I like the pretty pictures! I just can't figure out how to do anything with the site except follow people. Which is cool. I've had an empty tumblr for months now for the sole purpose of following other people. And I honestly have no idea what I would post there myself, but I feel like I'm missing some crucial element of fandom interaction, and it saddens me. Anyway, I'm kaydeefalls on tumblr. There is nothing there. Possibly I will start clicking the reblog button when I see pretty pictures I particularly like, and pretend I'm somehow contributing to fandom. :/ (I can't even make my own pretty pictures anymore. My father insisted I install Lion on my laptop, which then rendered invalid my entire Adobe Creative Suite, and I can't afford to drop $700 on Photoshop right now. I am SO ANGRY about this, guys, you don't even know. I used Photoshop way more than I give even the smallest shit about any of the features in the OS upgrade.)

I'm also just deeply frustrated with life in general right now, so this may just be an offshoot of that. And it's been one of those mornings where the phone is ringing off the hook and people keep trying to make awkward small talk with me and I just want to be left alone for five fucking minutes. Um. Sorry about that.

ANYWAY. 2011 Year in Review Meme! Which I typed up like two weeks ago and then never posted. Whatever, I'm slow with these things. And mainly I had to wait for the [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant reveals, because those totally add to my 2011 word count total.

2011 by the numbers )

fanworks )

year in review meme )

WIP snippets for 2012 )

hound.

Jan. 8th, 2012 10:23 pm
sherlock/john in taxi
♥_♥

I want to say that I have thinky-thoughts, but no, really, just that I don't think I could possibly ship Sherlock/John any harder if they actually made out onscreen. Which they obviously won't, so. This is good enough for me.

I am embracing my shallow fangirl here, please indulge.

(Also, squee, Russell Tovey! I was strangely disconcerted by his posh accent the entire time -- very different from Rudge or Alonso.)
charles looking at erik with hearts in his eyes omg
[livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant authors have been revealed! Oh, man. A couple of those I totally guessed; others, I'm kind of smacking myself in the forehead for not figuring out immediately. And then, y'know, a bunch of authors I wasn't familiar with before, who now I obviously need to check out. If you like Charles/Erik and you haven't taken a look at this exchange yet, you really should. Ninety-five new fics, many excellent. Huge kudos to [livejournal.com profile] pocky_slash for organizing and running the damn thing.

And now I can properly thank [livejournal.com profile] argyleheir for her excellent gift, Practical Applications of Radioactive Material. READ IT! Erik and Charles keep running into other superheroes on their recruitment trip; I particularly adore Sue Storm in this one, but really, it's all just great fun and awesomeness. ♥

Also, I wrote some stuff?

Celestial Navigation (9470 words) by faviconkaydeefalls - or on LJ
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Relationships: Erik Lehnsherr/Charles Xavier
Characters: Charles Xavier, Erik Lehnsherr, N'Dare Munroe, Ororo Munroe
Summary: Not everything has to be life or death. Sometimes it snows in September, just because a little girl wills it so.

From the sign-ups, it was pretty clear that [livejournal.com profile] ginbitch and I have pretty damn similar tastes in terms of canon fics set in the 1960s; I definitely got my period research kink on writing it. The prompt was for snow, which to me, obviously meant bb!Ororo had to be in there somewhere, which wound up mostly involving her mother, N'Dare Munroe. I kept their family backstory as close to comics!canon as possible -- N'Dare was Kenyan, one of long line of priestess-sorceresses; she married an American photojournalist, and Ororo was born in Harlem. They move to Egypt when Ororo is very young. I couldn't find anything suggesting N'Dare was herself a mutant, so that bit's all mine. Also, it's kind of a love letter to New York City (my hometown), and it let me get inside Charles's enormous head way more than I've ever really thought about before. Telepathy is weird, guys. So that's that one.

&

I Ain't Scared of Lightning (13107 words) by faviconkaydeefalls - or on LJ
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Relationships: Erik Lehnsherr/Charles Xavier
Characters: Erik Lehnsherr, Charles Xavier, Alex Summers, Moira MacTaggert, Armando Muñoz, Angel Salvadore, Hank McCoy, Raven Darkholme
Summary: Canon!AU. "Shaw has someone very dear to me," Charles said in a low tone. "You're not the only one playing for keeps, Erik."

Pinch hit of doom! I have no fucking clue where this came from, except that I had this image in my head of Charles on the Coast Guard ship flanked by Darwin and Angel, and Erik being like, daaaaamn. But it was kind of an intense ride for me -- most of it was written frantically over the course of last weekend, as, um, you might have noticed. I'd originally intended to include flashbacks of Charles & Raven's altered backstory, but when I realized how massive the main plotline was becoming, I cut them all out. Possibly there's another fic in there; possibly there's also another fic continuing the AU version of events through the end of the movie. Possibly I should just leave it be. My main regret with this is that I didn't have the time to fully explore the changes in Charles's outlook on the world due to losing Raven so early on -- I think he'd be much more pragmatic and less optimistic about the Shaw situation, and far less scrupulous about his own use of his powers to achieve his goals. And, on the flip side, he would actually be able to understand Erik's point of view much better -- there wouldn't be such a wide chasm of miscommunication between them, which would serve both them and the team much better in the long run. I'm not sure how well any of that came across. But it was interesting to explore. (Original prompts from [livejournal.com profile] confusedkayt: badassery leading to kissing, holding one another, Erik connecting with Alex. I did manage to incorporate all three!)

So...yeah. That happened. :)

why not.

Jan. 6th, 2012 11:10 am
angel will charge double for both
Stealing the idea shamelessly from many Yuletiders and also [livejournal.com profile] pocky_slash:

Guess my [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant fics! Posting finishes later today, and I think reveals are sometime tomorrow. Lots of people do this for Yuletide, which I think is silly because there are approximately WAY TOO DAMN MANY fics involved in Yuletide for guessing to be at all viable, but [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant only has like a hundred fics to sort through. I think I have been staggeringly obvious about one of mine on this journal, but what the hell, it's not like I'm going to take off points for my own carelessness in posting about it.

Hints:
-I wrote two fics.
-Both are more than double the minimum word count for the exchange; neither are the longest fic written for it.
-They are not written with the same POV character(s).
-One is AU, the other is not.
-No guarantee that both have already been posted, as the exchange is not quite finished yet.
-No, seriously, staggeringly obvious, the both of them.

And anyone who guesses either of them right gets a ficlet of their choice. Which, given my inability to write short fics, who knows what that'll turn into.

Comments screened. :)

HEE.

Jan. 5th, 2012 08:22 pm
vince shocked: OH MY GOD
Meme, gacked from several people:

1) Discover the #1 single in your country of origin in the week you were born.
2) Find it on YouTube.
3) Post it on your LJ/DW page without shame. Or for some of you, with shame.


Tears for Fears - Everybody Wants to Rule the World

SNERK. Of all the 80s musical artists -- I hate most pop music post, like, 1969 -- I'm kind of impressed it's a group I actually have on my iPod (thank you, Donnie Darko soundtrack), though I've never heard the song. OH GOD THE MUSIC VIDEO, WHAT IS THE HAIR, WHY THE RANDOM STOCK FOOTAGE OF A PLANE LANDING.

SHERLOCK.

Jan. 1st, 2012 06:34 pm
sherlock/john in taxi
I was going to watch this the whole way through, but no, I need to stop and flail at you all while it's in progress.

spoilers for Sherlock 2x01. OBVIOUSLY. )
dan/casey shooting the shit
Heeeey, Yuletide! My fic will surprise absolutely no one who knows me.

The World's Fastest Snowball (4010 words) by faviconkaydeefalls
Fandom: Sports Night
Rating: General Audiences
Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Dan Rydell, Casey McCall, Dana Whitaker, Natalie Hurley, Jeremy Goodwin, Kim (Sports Night), Elliot (Sports Night), Isaac Jaffe, Chris (Sports Night), Dave (Sports Night), Will (Sports Night)
Summary:

In which a network plot may or may not be afoot, interns are procuring desks for unwilling sportscasters, and inclement weather threatens the course of baseball history. So business as usual, pretty much.



I'm kind of amused that of all the fandoms I offered and requested, I managed to both write and receive the same fandom. BUT THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS TOO MUCH SPORTS NIGHT FIC OKAY. This was fun to write, although it took me a very long time to get it started because I really, really don't know much about actual sports. The only sport I both understand and enjoy watching is baseball, hence this fic, but even so, I have never done so much research for such a relatively short fic. (The MLS trivia alone, dear god.) Anyway. It's nothing special, but I made myself giggle an awful lot while writing it and my recipient enjoyed it, so that's all that matters. :D


You know what else matters? NEW SHERLOCK TONIGHT OMG. Can. Not. Wait. And I wrote many, many words for the Charles/Erik pinch hit last night, which I now need to double-check for, y'know, coherency. And then actually fucking finish it today, oh god, I really need to do that, how is the pinch-hit I'm writing in a week longer than my original assigned fic which I worked on for a month. *facepalm*
fireworks exploding behind ennis
HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I am drinking vodka in my pajamas and writing Charles/Erik fic. I REGRET NOTHING.

well shit.

Dec. 30th, 2011 05:46 pm
wash's dinosaurs: "curse your sudden but inevitable betrayal!"
My [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant pinch hit plot keeps growing like the fucking Blob, guys, I don't even know. I thought I'd cleverly slashed it in half by cutting out all the backstory I'd originally planned on writing, but that apparently just opened the door to everything else spiraling out of fucking control. I am seriously concerned that Jan 2 will roll around and I will have to stop, close the document, and write 500 words of fluff from scratch to fill one of the prompts and then finish this as a completely separate fic later. :/ UGH. WHY CAN I NOT WRITE SHORT THINGS.

But anyway, people should go check out [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant, because there's a whole lot of Charles/Erik goodness being posted there every day this and next weeks. And if anyone guesses either of the fics I wrote, I will totally write you a ficlet* of your choice. (This also goes for Yuletide, incidentally, but that challenge is so damn huge that I don't actually expect anyone to somehow pick out my one little fic out of the two thousand and change posted.)

I mean, no guarantee that my original [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant fic has been posted yet, obviously. And my pinch hit will probably be super fucking obvious, if only because it will probably go up on the very last day of the challenge and, well, there are several other reasons it is painfully obviously a [personal profile] kaydeefalls creation, what with the stupid amount of plot slammed in around the very short and simple prompts the recipient requested. ASSUMING I EVER FINISH IT.

And then I'll have four days after that's due to finish my [community profile] festivids vid. EEP. Me and the seasonal challenges, guys, what the hell was I thinking?

*And by "ficlet", I mean "absurd plotty epic", who am I kidding.
kim&jeremy&dana running sports night
Happy Yuletide Day! Or whatever you happen to celebrate, y'know. I got a Sports Night fic, which is very appropriate given the Sorkinverse kick I've been on lately: The Team Player, in which Kim is a total BAMF and saves the show. WHICH IS THE TRUEST OF FACTS. And people should check it out. :D

My recipient seems to like her fic, which is awesome. I...feel like I've gotten WAY fewer responses to my fic than usual, which made me feel very insecure for a minute, and then I browsed through the Yuletide archive again and realized that a lot of fics have similarly low hit counts/kudos/comments/what have you, so I'm going to stop being a selfish brat and not whine about it again. There are just SO DAMN MANY Yuletide fics this year, it takes a while for people to work through them. So yeah. Leave your fics some love, is all I'm sayin'. I'm trying to at least kudos every fic I like. ♥

Saw Sherlock Holmes 2 with the parents today. Great fun, though the plot was kinda eh. Holmes & Watson are totally shtupping. And I WANT TO MARRY MARY MORSTAN OMG. In all other incarnations, including the original stories, I am a diehard Holmes/Watson (or Sherlock/John) shipper; in the Ritchie version, which are probably the most outright slashtastic, I'm all about the Holmes/Watson/Mary OT3. BECAUSE MARY MORSTAN ♥ ♥ ♥

And then my coworker from my day job texted me a photo of my reception desk, which has been kind of destroyed and one computer monitor is missing. So that kind of put a damper on my day. Not my personal property or my mess to clean up, but still. What the hell.

Anyway. Time to find a Doctor Who Christmas Special download! And I am SO EXCITED about [livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant fics being posted starting tomorrow. (And may have picked up a pinch hit, which may have requested a very simple fluffy scenario which I am bracketing with MASSIVE AMOUNTS OF PLOT, but that's kind of business as usual for me. Except, oh god, I need to write the entire thing in a week. Good thing I'm on actual vacation!)
tophat!amy is puttin' on the RItz
Yuletide victory is mine! And AO3 is still running very smoothly. Which was a pleasant surprise.

And my date last night went quite satisfactorily, thank you. \o/

Nothing in particular to add about the latest round of LJ fuckwittery. I continue to be [personal profile] kaydeefalls at DW, which has become my primary home. The downside of Dreamwidth at the moment is that most fannish activity is still centered around LJ; but once enough of us get active over here, that will slowly shift. And please, I've been on LJ for close to a decade, I LOVE the community it fostered, and I will be very, very sad if fandom shifts over to someplace like tumblr instead. (Tumblr is great for image-based fannishness, but oh god, do I ever despise their interface for actual, like, communication. And I'm a very text-based fan myself, so, really not ideal.)

DO WANT.

Dec. 20th, 2011 10:27 pm
pippin with leaf pin in mouth, text "one by one my leaves fall, one by one my tales are told"
HOBBIT TRAILER.

YES PLEASE.

(And I'm making actual progress on Yuletide, thank fucking god. Should really go to bed, but if I can push through and finish the damn thing tonight, it might be worth the sleep deprivation at work tomorrow...)

one candle

Dec. 20th, 2011 05:35 pm
chihiro sitting on balcony, watching train chugging through the water
Happy Chanukah, my friends. ♥
sherlock/john in taxi
Saw "Tinker Tailor" today. ♥_♥ I'm fond of the book, and the movie does an EXCELLENT job condensing the plot and keeping it moving. brief spoilers )

They definitely need to film more of the Smiley series with this cast. I definitely need to read more of the Smiley series first, though.

And because clearly the universe is pleased to give me Benedict Cumberbatch today, Sherlock series 2 clips. I AM SO EXCITE.

...and speaking of Gary Oldman and Tom Hardy, new Dark Knight Rises trailer. My fandoms, they have so many overlaps.
charles looking at erik with hearts in his eyes omg
[livejournal.com profile] secret_mutant fic done! Now it just needs, y'know, a beta. And for me to reread it when I'm not a wee bit tipsy. (Finishing fics drunk after a pub crawl: not highly recommended. On the other hand, alcohol breaks through writer's block like nobody's business.)

I'm not usually a music-oriented person when I'm working on fic, though I do have a generic writing playlist of soothing background noise. (And I write a lot of Boden's Mate / Queen's Gambit with the Inception soundtrack on loop.) But seriously, Tom McRae is my Charles/Erik fanmix. Every single damn song of his relates to them in some way or another, I swear to god. And I'm not usually the sort of person who assigns every love song on the radio to my current OTP. This is NOT normal for me. And yet. Guys, the dude has a song titled "Ghost of a Shark", and that is not even the most fitting element of the song. ("I'm gonna leave any minute...") For this fic, in particular, I've been listening to "Best Winter", "Houdini and the Girl" ("He says I’ve been under the water / I’ve been under the ground / And honey one thing’s certain / There’s no escaping now"), and "Sound of the City" ("And I watch you fall from a great height / and you watch me fail night after night"), but...ugh. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH, and Tom McRae is totally their soundtrack for ever and ever amen.

And now I need to write Yuletide. FUCK.

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