oh, for fuck's sake!

My B.A. critical paper, half of the B.A. entire, which I am currently writing even though I'm only a second-year, due to being in Ireland next year when I would normally have to write it, is due on Monday at 9am. I got the draft back -- from one of the two profs -- a week ago. She ripped it apart. Well, I haven't taken a single critical class in my major yet, what the hell was she expecting? I've never written a paper even remotely like this before, and I'm totally unprepared, because I'm a second-year and with the massive amounts of gen ed requirements at this school, I haven't had a chance to take the sort of classes that would prepare me for this. Oh, yeah, and I didn't know I was going to have to write it this quarter until, um, the end of last quarter. So my draft is godawful, and her comments, while good at ripping it to shreds, aren't entirely constructive in that I'm not sure how to salvage this thing. And the other prof didn't even get the draft, because apparently my e-mail fucked up sending it, and he never took a minute to tell me oh, by the way, never got your draft, mind resending it? So I sent him the draft from my school e-mail account (instead of gmail).

That was all last Thursday.

This week, I signed up for the prof who had read my draft's office hours. On Tuesday. I showed up, and she said there was a mix-up, she had another appointment, e-mail her to set up another time, and closed the door in my face. Yesterday, I had work all day, and couldn't meet with her, so I e-mailed her saying I'm free all Thursday, what time would be best for you?

No response.

No response from the prof I resent the draft to, either.

Final paper due in less than four days.

So I just sent off e-mails to both of them, basically begging to meet and discuss the draft, which, by the way, is my B. fucking. A., which is a large part in determining whether I graduate with honors or, hell, at all. Which I am grossly unprepared for, seeing as I wasn't supposed to write it for another year. And if they don't get back to me by tomorrow? Then it's the weekend. And then it's Monday, 9am, and the damn thing is due.

I'll wait until tomorrow afternoon, and if nothing happens, I start pleading for extension. Or, better yet, for this paper to be scaled down and count only as the final paper for the class, and to write the B.A. critical component while in Dublin. Which I think will improve it, since I'm taking only critical classes in my major next year, and will actually have a minimum of experience tackling this sort of thing.

Sorry, just needed to vent for a bit. I'm really at my wit's end here.