bleargh.

[kaydeefalls]

Applying for jobs is much of the suck. The fact that I'm graduating in a few months doesn't scare me, but the thought of not having anything lined up for myself is fucking terrifying. Urg. At least I made it to the final interview stage for Teach For America, and it looks like I'll even have a letter of rec to give them. I need to not fuck this up, because oddly enough, I actually think I have a better chance getting that than any of the positions in my actual field of study that I'm applying for. Because TFA may be selective, but they don't have a limit on the number of applicants they'll take: they take as many people as they think are qualified. Whereas it doesn't matter how overqualified I am for a certain theater internship, 'cause if one other person is more charming in an interview, I'm not getting it. And while I try to be friendly and personable, I know I'm not the most charismatic of people, and in an industry like theater, that can really hurt me.

Also, I need to hang out with people. I thought I'd be seeing a couple of different friends over the weekend, but no plans have been formalized, so I think I'm out of luck there. And I unintentionally blew off another friend earlier today, because I was too busy stressing out to force myself out of my own apartment. Which is currently empty, except for the roommate I seem to be fighting with, although I do kinda wish he'd quit the month-long silent treatment he's been giving me for long enough to TELL me what on earth I did to him. Ugh. Just ugh.