points of divergence
Nov. 9th, 2010 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kaydeefalls
Show in tech. Rapidly losing will to live. Please send extra hours of sleep.
I have been utter crap at responding to comments lately. And then I think about how many overdue comments I haven't responded to, and feel guilty about it, and don't want to look at them, and hide. And thus the cycle continues. Oh, well.
Memo to self: don't try to use critical thinking skills on less than 5 hours of sleep. I totally just submitted a form online with my address WRONG. Like, correct street address, but wrong city and state. What the hell, brain. I am deeply embarrassed by this. Normally I am not made of stupid.
Also, I may have made a rather impulsive life choice this morning. Every couple of years I pull a stunt like this, and it always winds up impacting my life in hugely gamechanging ways, for both good and ill. The first time I wound up living in Ireland for a year -- for most of which I was deeply depressed (well, for a definition of depression that was fortunately still high-functioning and never clinically diagnosed), but which I do not regret in the slightest because I got so much more out of it in retrospect than I realized living through it. The second time brought me to DC for a kind of miserable job that made me awesome connections and, well, here I am still. So my impulses, they tend to be emotionally unhealthy in the short-term but ultimately rewarding. I don't know whether this is a good or a bad trend. But yeah. The likelihood is extremely high that this one won't actually lead to anything, but it was an impulsive decision that needed to be made. Even if it doesn't pan out, I feel like I'm doing something proactive, and I need that.
So we'll see.
I have been utter crap at responding to comments lately. And then I think about how many overdue comments I haven't responded to, and feel guilty about it, and don't want to look at them, and hide. And thus the cycle continues. Oh, well.
Memo to self: don't try to use critical thinking skills on less than 5 hours of sleep. I totally just submitted a form online with my address WRONG. Like, correct street address, but wrong city and state. What the hell, brain. I am deeply embarrassed by this. Normally I am not made of stupid.
Also, I may have made a rather impulsive life choice this morning. Every couple of years I pull a stunt like this, and it always winds up impacting my life in hugely gamechanging ways, for both good and ill. The first time I wound up living in Ireland for a year -- for most of which I was deeply depressed (well, for a definition of depression that was fortunately still high-functioning and never clinically diagnosed), but which I do not regret in the slightest because I got so much more out of it in retrospect than I realized living through it. The second time brought me to DC for a kind of miserable job that made me awesome connections and, well, here I am still. So my impulses, they tend to be emotionally unhealthy in the short-term but ultimately rewarding. I don't know whether this is a good or a bad trend. But yeah. The likelihood is extremely high that this one won't actually lead to anything, but it was an impulsive decision that needed to be made. Even if it doesn't pan out, I feel like I'm doing something proactive, and I need that.
So we'll see.
