shut down, reboot.
May. 3rd, 2012 08:59 am
Had a low-grade headache all day yesterday, which made me feel cranky and out-of-sorts, so when I got home I curled up in bed with some fic to read and then I opened my eyes again and it was nearly midnight. Um. So I rolled over and went back to sleep and didn't get up until my alarm went off at 6:30am this morning. Which means that I slept for more than twelve hours.
On the plus side, I feel really well-rested today. Which is good, because I'm going to the midnight showing of the Avengers, so it's not like I'm going to be getting any sleep tonight.
Avengers! I'm still primarily an X-Men girl, but I'm pretty darn excited for this, especially since everyone who's seen it already seems to be raving about it. (Which is also why I decided to just give in and see the midnight showing despite how sleep-deprived and miserable it will make work tomorrow -- I've already been accidentally spoiled on two major things I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO BE SPOILED ABOUT, and that'll only get worse once it finally opens in the US.) So, yeah, meeting up with a group of fen in Silver Spring to go see, that should be awesome.
Super frustrated with myself on the writing front. I managed all of 1000 words of Reversebang over the weekend, and it's all pretty much crap and I don't know how to make it not crap. I'm tempted to scrap everything and start from scratch, but I barely have any ideas for this fic at all, and I don't know where else to go with it. The artwork is so gorgeous, seriously, but my brain is just not fucking cooperating. I'm too stubborn to drop out, but I have to produce a rough draft in three weeks, and I'm terrified that it will just be completely awful. UGH.
...and that's how I get into the sort of toxic headspace where I shut down and sleep for twelve hours straight to avoid my own brain.
On the plus side, I feel really well-rested today. Which is good, because I'm going to the midnight showing of the Avengers, so it's not like I'm going to be getting any sleep tonight.
Avengers! I'm still primarily an X-Men girl, but I'm pretty darn excited for this, especially since everyone who's seen it already seems to be raving about it. (Which is also why I decided to just give in and see the midnight showing despite how sleep-deprived and miserable it will make work tomorrow -- I've already been accidentally spoiled on two major things I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO BE SPOILED ABOUT, and that'll only get worse once it finally opens in the US.) So, yeah, meeting up with a group of fen in Silver Spring to go see, that should be awesome.
Super frustrated with myself on the writing front. I managed all of 1000 words of Reversebang over the weekend, and it's all pretty much crap and I don't know how to make it not crap. I'm tempted to scrap everything and start from scratch, but I barely have any ideas for this fic at all, and I don't know where else to go with it. The artwork is so gorgeous, seriously, but my brain is just not fucking cooperating. I'm too stubborn to drop out, but I have to produce a rough draft in three weeks, and I'm terrified that it will just be completely awful. UGH.
...and that's how I get into the sort of toxic headspace where I shut down and sleep for twelve hours straight to avoid my own brain.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}