Well.

[kaydeefalls]

I've reached a sort of zen state, re: schoolwork. Like. No matter how frantically I study and read shit and try to take loads of notes for my Tolkien midterm tomorrow morning, I'll never be prepared for it. I just won't. There's been about 400 pages of reading per week, of which I've only managed to do about half on a regular basis, and my brain simply cannot process that much information all at once. So. I'll read a bit more, maybe jot down a few things, but I won't stay up all night worrying about it. The exam is at 9am; if I don't get enough sleep, I'll just botch it all up anyway. And I'll get through the essay somehow. I've done it before. I won't do fantastically, but I'll pass. And once my show is over, I'll have time to really work hard for the rest of the quarter, so even if I do really badly tomorrow, I'll pull through all right. This class is just an elective; it's not hugely important. And no one will ever care if I failed one lousy midterm in one lousy class once in my entire college career. This isn't a big deal.

I just want it to be over with. That's all.

Comments

[msilverstar]

Zen is good, you'll do fine with the essay, serenity is the right attitude. <3 you

Congratulations!

[trivetmonger.livejournal.com]

You have discovered "cutting your losses." May it bring you many peaceful nights' rests!

Re: Congratulations!

[ldmoonflower.livejournal.com]

Well, it's the 5AM hour where you are, so

Guy walks into a bar and orders a beer. But the bartender won't give him a beer, because THE BARTENDER'S AN ALIEN!

Oh god, writing about English madrigals. The last third of my thesis: sometimes, they sucked.

Re: Congratulations!

[ldmoonflower.livejournal.com]

You know what? That's funny to me now, because I've been pulling this late-night shit all week, all for the same paper or my composition or the other papers/projects or whatever. Have passed burnout point to a fairly constant state of hyper-organization to distract myself.

. . . last week of class blows.