home again

[kaydeefalls]

Back in Chicago. Feel tired, but sort of...free. The combination of being finally done with college, about to move to my own apartment, and pseudo-single (it's complicated) started sinking in on my flight, and it's like a weight off of me. For a while, at least, I want to live only for myself. No sitting through classes I'm not interested in, no roommates I have to be considerate of, no nearby boyfriend whose wants and needs have to factor into my leisure time. I am obligated to myself and myself alone, if only for a few months or so. I mean, yes, I'm looking for various forms of employment, and yes, I will be a responsible worker for whoever hires me for whatever job, but those jobs will be of my choosing, so that's all right. I just want to be selfish for a little while. I want to worry about making myself happy, for a change. Or something like that.

I still love the boyfriend, of course, and I'll miss him, but...I'm kind of relieved to be on my own for now. Does that make me a bad person?

Of course, I'm also exhausted and have to get up reasonably early to get to an interview tomorrow morning, but I just wasted about two hours looking for BSG screencaps and making Sharon icons. Such is life.

Comments

[trivetmonger.livejournal.com]

As far as I can tell, that makes you an awesome person. I think learning how to be selfish is actually very important, particularly if you've been living on someone else's terms. I say mazel tov, and enjoy yourself. It's a treat to be free and you certainly won't always be so. Be happy.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

Julie tells me you want me to call you. Any reason you couldn't just call me yourself? :P

[trivetmonger.livejournal.com]

yeah, I lost your phone number because I jumped in the Atlantic ocean with my phone.

[msilverstar]

Sounds like a good transition, and you're ready for it. That's nifty!

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Here's hoping, anyway. :)