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kaydeefallsI'm in a weird blank mood today. I just want to turn off and not interact with anyone. Of course, I have work all morning and rehearsal all afternoon and I'm supposed to go out with some friends tonight. The friends I can cancel on, though I'll feel bad about it because my fucked up theater-centric schedule means I never see them.
DC Pride is this weekend, and I'm worried I'm going to have to pull out of plans to go to the parade and events and things because I need to have the complete Big Bang draft sent out Sunday. I am really not feeling the fannish love right now. Using my free time for fic is one thing -- I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't love it! But having to cancel doing stuff I was really looking forward to, that's not so much fun. That starts feeling a lot like work. I know it's my own fault for not budgeting my time better earlier on, but there we have it. Ugh. I'd already been stalling and sticking on this fic for months before I decided to Big Bang it out -- it's just not coming smoothly at all, and that's intensely frustrating. I'm worried that I'll wind up with this huge 50k-word monstrosity that just isn't any good. Blah.
Again, weird mood. Nothing has gone wrong today, but nothing feels right.
Here, have a TV meme.
Day 06 - Favorite episode of your favorite TV show
Sticking with X-Files as the favorite show, this is easy. "Pusher". Oh, man. That was one of the episodes I had on tape, back in the day, and I rewatched it more times than I can count. The MSR UST is through the roof and the villain is genuinely chilling. Oh, Robert Patrick Modell, you creepy sadistic fuck. Cerulean blue is like a gentle breeze. Plus, timid little Holly kicking twelve kinds of shit out of Skinner is kind of hilarious. And it holds up well even now -- it's more psychological thriller with a sci-fi twist than monster-of-the-week. The stand-off at the end with Modell and Scully basically competing for control of Mulder is just damn good television. And Scully saves the day! Good times. I still love that one.
DC Pride is this weekend, and I'm worried I'm going to have to pull out of plans to go to the parade and events and things because I need to have the complete Big Bang draft sent out Sunday. I am really not feeling the fannish love right now. Using my free time for fic is one thing -- I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't love it! But having to cancel doing stuff I was really looking forward to, that's not so much fun. That starts feeling a lot like work. I know it's my own fault for not budgeting my time better earlier on, but there we have it. Ugh. I'd already been stalling and sticking on this fic for months before I decided to Big Bang it out -- it's just not coming smoothly at all, and that's intensely frustrating. I'm worried that I'll wind up with this huge 50k-word monstrosity that just isn't any good. Blah.
Again, weird mood. Nothing has gone wrong today, but nothing feels right.
Here, have a TV meme.
Day 06 - Favorite episode of your favorite TV show
Sticking with X-Files as the favorite show, this is easy. "Pusher". Oh, man. That was one of the episodes I had on tape, back in the day, and I rewatched it more times than I can count. The MSR UST is through the roof and the villain is genuinely chilling. Oh, Robert Patrick Modell, you creepy sadistic fuck. Cerulean blue is like a gentle breeze. Plus, timid little Holly kicking twelve kinds of shit out of Skinner is kind of hilarious. And it holds up well even now -- it's more psychological thriller with a sci-fi twist than monster-of-the-week. The stand-off at the end with Modell and Scully basically competing for control of Mulder is just damn good television. And Scully saves the day! Good times. I still love that one.
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Date: 2010-06-11 02:15 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2010-06-11 02:26 pm (UTC)Anyway, sending support and poke me if I can help re: the big bang. Remember, you only need to have SOMETHING done for Sun, not the Real Finished Deal.