when everything's normal again

[kaydeefalls]

Okay. For the record, I have no idea where this came from. I heard this song for the first time on Friday night. Three days later, there was a vid. So I guess that's kind of like Monty Python's killer rabbit of vid bunnies.

Backstory on the music: this song was written by the brother of the director of the most recent show I worked on, which closed on Sunday. He's a professional singer/songwriter who just finished a project to produce one song per week for 40 weeks until his 40th birthday. This is the final song. And as a theater professional, my god, it speaks to me so much. Because you devote all this time and investment and putting your social life on hold for months, and then it's just -- done. And, fuck, now what?

We've all experienced it in some form or another.

The Doctor shows his companions the wonders of the universe, all of time and space. And it's marvelous and huge and impossible, and then it ends. How do you go back to normal after that?


What Am I Gonna Do Now
edited by kaydee falls
fandom: Doctor Who (+ minor TW, SJA)
characters: ensemble (Rose, Martha, Donna, Amy, Sarah Jane, Mickey, Jack, River, the Doctor)
music: "What Am I Gonna Do Now" by Todd Wright
summary: what am I gonna do when everything's normal again? Searching for life after the Doctor.
watch: embed below the cut, or on Vimeo
download: mediafire (.mov, 56 MB)
disclaimer: not mine, no profit, don't sue.
notes: spoilers through all aired Doctor Who episodes.



Password: companions

What Am I Gonna Do Now? from kaydee falls on Vimeo.

LYRICS:

It's hard to remember
That late September
When all this came crashing down
Darkness to daylight
You kept me up nights
Without you I should sleep sound
What am I gonna do now?

What am I gonna do now?
What am I gonna do when
Everything's normal again
And nobody's around?
What am I gonna do now?

After all you've shown me
You leave me lonely
Still talking about my poor heart
All my pretending
Comes to an ending
With nowhere for me to start
What am I gonna do now?

What am I gonna do now?
What am I gonna do when
Everything's normal again
And nobody's around?
What am I gonna do now?

What am I gonna do now without you?

(Support struggling artists! If you like this song, check out Todd Wright's music at Orange Pop Songs. All songs are free to download.)

Comments

[lady-with-cats.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is beautiful, with the timing and particularly the scenes you chose to match the lyrics. The companions will always be awesome, with or without their Doctor. :D

(and the music is simply lovely too)

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[tardis-stowaway.livejournal.com]

This is lovely! The problem of what can possibly come after the Doctor is something New Who has dealt with a bunch, and this vid is a moving exploration of the topic.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you! It's a topic I'm very strongly drawn to, clearly, so I'm glad it worked for you.

[tearful-eye.livejournal.com]

aww, this is so lovely! sort of sweet & melancholic, i really like it. especially that in the very end you show a tiny bit of how the doctor doesn't really know what to do without his companions either ... so good :)

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you! And, yeah, the loss definitely goes both ways.

[falinemalfoy.livejournal.com]

THIS is amazingly beautiful. The song is wonderful, and absolutely perfect with the clips you chose. I'm all sad and sniffly now and I'm so happy for it! Thanks for sharing!

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[tricksterquinn.livejournal.com]

Oh, lovely! I like that the answer to "What am I gonna do now?" seems, for the majority of the companions, to involve big guns. I approve.

Seriously, though, this is lovely - melancholy without being hopeless or too downer. Very well done!

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Big guns, this is true. Though Sarah Jane most certainly does NOT approve. :) Thank you!

[acchikocchi.livejournal.com]

This was a lovely, poignant vid (*scrubs at eyes*) and on top of that, an introduction to great new music - thank you for both. :)

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm so glad you enjoyed it.

[mogwai-do.livejournal.com]

What a cool vid :) Nice to see the focus on the companions and what the effect is on them.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[euruaina.livejournal.com]

That was so incredibly beautiful and so, so perfect. How well the song fits, and the bittersweetness of it all gave me goose-bumps and even made my cry a bit. It's been a while since a fanvid has been that good.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm very glad you enjoyed it.

[femvamp.livejournal.com]

This was incredible. Very moving and very well done. The timing was and scenes you chose working well with the song and best of all it told a truly amazing story.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[glass-moment.livejournal.com]

Oh, man, this was lovely, and awesomely original as well. Bravo!

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!

[retsuko.livejournal.com]

Oh, that's simply lovely. I really appreciate the way you used the vid to answer the song's question. :)

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[readerjane]

Very beautiful.

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[such_heights]

How had I never seen this before? It's absolutely gorgeous. <3

[kaydeefalls.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much!