this is your brain on no drugs, why god why

[kaydeefalls]

I quit caffeine about four and a half months ago. This has largely been a good decision, I think. I feel more alert, I'm sleeping better, I'm even slowly losing weight. But man, this is one of those weeks when I DEEPLY regret it. My show of great awesomeness finally closed Sunday, and yesterday afternoon I went into tech for a show I'm light designing. It's a small community theater, way less stressful than the large professional theater I usually work for; and I'm just lights, not stage management, so again with the lower stress. But I'm still running frantically up and down ladders every afternoon and then teching at night, and between this and my day job, I leave my apartment at 7:30am every morning and don't get home until close to 11pm at night. So not very stressed, but TIRED. And uncaffeinated. The only thing that's keeping me from cheating is the vivid memory of two straight weeks of withdrawal headaches when I originally quit. (I am not exaggerating. If I'd ever doubted that caffeine was a legitimate drug, that disabused me of the notion right quick.)

But man, I would like a Coke Zero right now.

Also, the XMFC/Inception fusion has passed 45k words. WHAT THE HELL. It's now officially the second-longest fic I've ever written. It needs another good 20k to slide into first place (currently held by my last TARDIS Big Bang), and I don't think it'll get there, but I have been completely unable to guesstimate this fucker so far and really, all bets are off. I know how much more plot is left, but word count, pfft, no clue. I'm mostly just boggling that I've written 45k words in a month, because seriously, what. And at some point I will actually get to the end and realize that now I have to find a beta and actually revise this thing, which, oh god.

Comments

[sentientcitizen]

Man. I've been facepalming because one of my fics escaped my control and hit 15k. 45k is crazy impressive! Also I am super excited for reading it. *grin*

[kaydeefalls]

This is because you are sane, and I am not. Seriously, when I started this, I was all, okay, this is a long one, I might even hit 20k. SUCH NAIVETY.