i'm packing for the crash

[kaydeefalls]

My work schedule is very weird this week, but today was a day off, and I have given myself permission to have zero social interaction all day. It's been SUCH a relief, oh my god, I didn't realize how badly I needed that. I've been...very, very social lately, which is a good thing! Really! I like people! But I'm still an introvert, and I haven't had much in the way of recharge time over the past couple of weeks, so, yeah. (I also have strep throat, and no idea how I contracted it. Fortunately, I figured it out within a few hours of symptom onset and got diagnosed and on antibiotics that evening, so I only had like one day of minor pain before the drugs kicked in, and now I feel totally fine. I mean, I have to keep taking the antibiotics for another week, but still.)

Haven't had much time or energy for writing lately at all. But I've been working on fic on and off all day, which is awesome. Um, of course, it hasn't been any fic I SHOULD be writing (finishing Queen's Gambit or starting on my eleventyfest assignment). So now I have like 2500 words of always-a-girl!Kirk fic? And still going strong? Look, I don't even know at this point, Star Trek Reboot fandom has kind of eaten my brain since seeing "Into Darkness". Which, believe me, I know all the ways in which that was not a good movie and in fact failed on many levels, but it awakened my long-dormant Kirk/Spock fangirl, so, that happened? But that fails to explain this fic. I have never once in my life written a genderswap. And yet. I don't even know how shippy it'll wind up being -- Kirk/Spock is and always shall be my endgame pairing in this fandom, so probably it'll at least sort of go there? But mostly I'm just interested in how Kirk's utter Kirk-ness would both change and stay the same if he'd been born cis-female. (Like, she really doesn't start off on good terms with Bones, but on the flip side, she's way better friends with Uhura.) I AM WRITING A FIC THAT NO ONE WILL READ.

I kind of avoided even thinking about writing in the Trek fandom, because I'm not a "real" Trekkie (never watched TOS, have seen but not particularly liked some TNG and DS9); I really only got interested in the fandom through the Reboot, which I know is heresy. But the AU implications inherent in the Reboot 'verse fascinate me, and so taking that AUness a step further by making Kirk female doesn't feel quite as blasphemous. Still. I've only seen one genderswapped!Kirk fic so far (it was awesome, FYI, but mostly just PWP), and while I'm sure there must be more out there, I get the sense this is not a popular fandom fad. OH WELL, WRITING ANYWAY.

God, it's just a relief to be writing something, at least.

Comments

[andrealyn]

I'm not really in the Kirk/Spock side of fandom, but I know there's tons of girl!Kirk in the Kirk/Bones side, so I think plenty of people will still read the fic!

[kaydeefalls]

Excellent! I'm glad there's genderswapping going on in other parts of the fandom, it makes me feel less weird about it. :)

[msilverstar]

female!Kirk is definitely a draw for me

[kaydeefalls]

:D

[fiercynn]

omg, I'm so so so excited that you're writing Star Trek! And especially cisgirl!Kirk, which is definitely a thing that people like and do, but not a common enough thing for anyone to have gotten tired of it, I think. (I actually have a few snippets of genderswapped Trek fic in my WIP folder from back in 2009, though it's also cisgirl!Spock - don't know if I'll ever get back to it, but I love the idea so much.) Anyway, my point is, it sounds awesome and I'm sure everyone will read it!

Also, ugh, strep throat. You definitely deserve some recharge time after that and intense socializing!