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I am unemployed. Yay!

Not really yay. Yay to be out of a job that was slowly sapping away my will to live, I guess? Except for the parts of it that weren't, because it was one of the best work environments I've ever had, even though I was pretty thoroughly disillusioned with the work itself.

I'd been there for more than two years, had a great rapport with my boss and coworkers, was given great performance reviews every year. And just before Christmas, my boss and I sat down for a "goals-setting" meeting, and since he has always presented himself as my mentor, I spoke honestly about how the US election made me reevaluate my priorities and I wanted to find a way to transition back into nonprofits or at least work that made me feel like I was making more of a tangible difference in the world, and that I wasn't leaving but I was looking, and would keep him fully apprised every step of the way because I trusted him and believed in him etc etc etc, and a week later he came back and told me that for the good of the company's bottom line, my last day would be March 10th (so that I could hire and train my successor).

So that happened. On the plus side, I now know for sure that this company's values DEFINITELY do not align with my own, and I'm glad to be rid of them. The month I spent training my replacement (who, for the record, is a straight boy right out of college with no experience, which makes me feel super shitty about my life for the past two years if I was that easily replaceable by an infant male) was just...not good. So being out of there is definitely a net plus for my mental health.

Unemployment, obviously, less so. I'm too experienced at this point for admin assistant-level positions, but I haven't seen much to apply for at my actual level. I've been on hold for a job I REALLY want for over a month now -- made it through interviews etc, she even contacted my references and passed my application on to the CEO, and now I'm in a holding pattern of nothingness because they're "undergoing some restructuring" and I just saw the same job posted earlier this week with a slightly different title attached to it, so...yeah. And I've been applying for anything reasonable I can find, but it's a lot fewer and further between than I'd like. At the same time, having just left employment that left me feeling utterly drained and unhappy, I'm not exactly willing to jump at a job that looks even worse.

Look, you've all been there (or are currently there too), I don't need to belabor the point. It just sucks. I've spent my first week of joblessness mostly playing Civ to avoid the real world. I will probably continue to do that for a bit. It's also the first real vacation I've had in years, so, trying to focus on the positive here. I've finally caught up on my sleep. That's nice.

But hey, if anyone in NYC could use a kickass ex-stage manager who wants to do arts/education/nonprofit programs administration, by all means shoot me a link.

Date: 2017-03-17 03:16 am (UTC)
lilacsigil: 12 Apostles rocks, text "Rock On" (12 Apostles)
From: [personal profile] lilacsigil
I'm glad you caught up on your sleep, at least.

And it's not that you can actually be replaced by an infant male, but that infant males just *mysteriously* attract jobs they're not qualified for then everyone else has to pick up their slack.

Date: 2017-04-04 05:08 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] msilverstar
I am so sorry, and know a lot of how you feel. I've been unemployed a lot lately, and felt like my brain went into hibernation every time. I hope you find something good! I am in a more management role than I had hoped, but it's working OK so far.


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