on the plus side, my costume came out well

[kaydeefalls]

So...haven't been posting much RL stuff lately. Or at all. After the season at the kids theater ended in August, I was told I would not be invited back for the next season (for a very dumb reason completely unrelated to my abilities as a stage manager or my work ethic that I'd rather not go into). I was invited back for a two-week period to run a staged reading at the end of September, which I accepted partially for financial reasons, but mostly so that I could say goodbye to the kids properly. It was really fucking hard, and the handful of teenagers I did tell the real reason for my leaving were super pissed on my behalf. So, yeah, I've been dealing with the emotional fallout of that for the past few months. I wasn't terribly happy at that theater anymore, because the management was terrible and the office culture bordering on toxic, but I loved the kids, and I miss them an awful lot.

Starting in mid-August, I took over an office admin job from a friend, which was dull but paid well enough, and that was good. It was only ever going to be a temporary position, but my boss there liked me so much that he managed to stretch it out a full extra month, even though it was supposed to end in September. So my last day there was Friday. Can't complain -- had steady income for a few months, and that boss promised to give me a glowing reference if I need it. But now I'm officially unemployed again. I've been applying to jobs left and right with no responses. It's frustrating as hell. I don't want to complain any more -- god knows I'm not the only one going through this, the economy sucks -- and I'll admit that I could use a couple of weeks of nothing to deal with my mental/emotional shit. But it's scary not having anything lined up. I'm seriously considering quitting theater altogether, because I'm almost thirty and I'd actually like a reliable paycheck for the first time in my life, but that also feels like...giving up. And it sucks.

But I have good friends here, and I'm keeping busy on the board of the Gay Geeks group, so in that sense, I'm much better off now than I was two years ago. I'll try to focus on the positives, I guess, and keep applying to every arts admin job I can find. And keep my fingers crossed. Or something.

In the interest of staying positive, though, I put together a Kaylee (from Firefly) costume for Halloween, which I was quite pleased with!


I don't think there's a force in the 'verse that could stop Kaylee from being cheerful.

Comments

[pocketmouse]

Ugh, yes to everything with the theatre stuff -- I still hate that I've basically given it up except for the occasional call, but my knees and my budget are very glad that I have. Which makes me hate it more, etc. I hope you find something soon! I assume you're sticking to NY, though?

[kaydeefalls]

Thanks. Stupid theater. But yeah, I'm sticking to NYC -- I have too much of a life here now to be willing to give it up.

[lilacsigil]

Great costume! I love that you found a teddy bear patch!

Good luck on the work front.

[kaydeefalls]

Thanks!

[msilverstar]

Good to have the office appreciate you so much, and sad that Theater doesn't. One thing you should do is network a lot with your Gay Group, not aggressively, just tell people that you are job-hunting and where you'd like to work. You have done a lot for the group, let them help you too.

[kaydeefalls]

Yeah, I've been doing all the networking I can within the group, but there are only a couple of members who work in my field, alas.